If I manage to live as long as I am expected to live as an American male in the year 2024, then I have about 12,000 days left to live. My focus at this moment is to live better today than I did yesterday, and if I manage to do that for every one of the 12,000 days I have left, then I think I can live a full life.

Today, then, is all that matters, just like this breath is all that matters. Not the ones that came before, not the ones that will come after, just this one.

Stop it with the excuses. Stop it with the mental dishonesty. Push myself until I cry. Push myself until my body can’t take it anymore. Push myself until I see the white light at the end of the tunnel.

The middle school boys basketball season began on Tuesday with only the head coach hired to help coach them. I was asked a few weeks ago if I wanted to help, but I was eager to take a break from coaching until maybe the spring.

Yesterday one of my football boys asked me if I can help coach basketball.

I told him I would think about it, but I knew the answer as soon as he asked me:

I had my first basketball practice tonight, and I loved every minute of it. Here’s to another season with these boys 🍻

I already miss it.

Some things currently on my mind:

• Focus on being a good adult
• Keep a clean home
• Take care of myself
• Hang out with friends
• Be a part of the community
• Be a good influence

On Tuesday, we ended our 2024 middle school football season with a win. I am going to miss everything about this season, from seeing my boys every day, to traveling with them, to game days. I’m so grateful for everything. See you guys again next year.

From Tuesday, about an hour before our fourth game of the season. It was a tough one, but I think it was a turning point for everyone. Our boys fought from start to finish, and we all became stronger by the end. I love these boys and I’m proud to be their coach.

Our second game went really well. Many improvements over last week, many things still to work on. I love seeing the progress our boys are making.

Game 2 of my first year coaching football season begins later this afternoon, and I am less nervous than I was last week. We had a good week of practice and now it’s time to see what worked and what didn’t work. Let’s go.

According to court documents, Lawrence waived his Miranda rights and told investigators, “I’m toast anyways I guess, so, yeah I did it.”

Wow.